SuperSonic096

I'd rather not go into details, but please for the love of everything, just talk to me. I'm alone and I'm worthless. I need support. Please...

I'm usually very open with what I do and what my life is like.  Sometimes, I can be a bit insensitive with what I say.  I never mean anyone any harm or insult.  I just want to make some friends, since I barely have any in real life.

To anyone who I've acted insensitive, creepy, or anything else like that, I'm sorry.  If I ever act like that, just please let me know, and I'll stop.  Don't shut me out completely.  I want to learn from my mistakes, and I want to help you.

It's things like this that make my depression worse than before.  I feel like I should be dead, because I can never make anyone else feel happy or comfortable.  I won't consider harming myself, but I still feel that I don't deserve to live because of stuff like that.  I'm personally at my breaking point.

I'm sorry for anyone who had to read this.  I hope you can forgive me.

I feel very sad right now.  I just feel...I'm worried about many things, like my family and my school work.  I honestly don't have any real life friends, and nearly everybody at my school is either rude or obnoxious.  I'm terrible at socializing...and the few friends I have online...I'll never be able to meet them, since they live so far away from me.  And I'm worried that if I say a single thing out of line that could be considered rude, that I'm going to lose a friendship very quickly.  I just... I know there are good people out there, but I feel like that I'll never be able to see them.  I'm actually tearing up while I'm writing this....  I'm sorry.  I just need to let out my emotions somehow.

Hopefully, my upcoming Hiro Hamada cosplay photoshoot will make me feel better, but still....I have a feeling of sadness....and doubt.